today am goin to discuss a worldly problem, yaah i know, it cant b bigger than global worming, terrorism or famines, but still the victims of this problem can become a part of awl these problem.

coming to the point, the problem is "how average boyz (the kind of boyz like me) remain 'average & nerd' throghout their life"
i'll explain....

conditions :
1) parents only child
2) family income (after taxes) is only enuf to pay internet, cable bills for you, oh yeah and education exp. also.
2) every below average & above average hates you a li'l, coz you can't get along with them.
4) you shold be a male & non-gay (i think girls get over such situations really early & fast)


# the begining #

until primary & middle school, they dont make much friends, only a few in their locality, bt not much interaction.
constant quarrells at home between parents  & over that bullies picking on & teachers screamin,
but at the same time, they hope that, "good tyms will come, not by luck or co-incidence but only if I try".
which saves them from dropping their numbers & the balance is somehow , acheived.

# the main course #

hope & tries (not hard work though) with li'l laziness, still remains the best strategy,
but un-willingness to take part in extra activities takes over, real life socializing at it's minimum, shyness takes over (the thing that wards off the girls the most) low socializing, low moral support from friends & relatives, but still they are not about to become an EMO, COZ THEY KNOW, "even if i feel something, who's gonna care, then why sh'd i care."

life continues.......

# big steps ahead #

the thing called "college lyf" starts, with a li'l hope that "yes things will change, by getting to know new people"
(believe me, we really see friendship & luv life like the games "age of empires" or "command & conquer".)

but what the heck, nothing changes, shyness & uncertainty, alongwith the lust of t.v. & computer, alongwith studies makes a perfect combi to restrict ourself from getting into any new new adventures of lyf (damn).

there'z alwez "should I ? but what will others think" or "will i get embarrassed or humiliated",
yes, a life full of low or no confidence (and some laziness also), while quarrells at home have not yet stopped !!

virtual life & being a netizen remains the only way to open up urself, but what the heck, no one here trusts you so much that can share what you feel.....coz evryone believes,,,,words can fool...so why believe the one whom we dont know.

# anti climax #

suddenly you get a blow, geez you have nevr been fallen below average, but you are now.... worse than the worst happens....
while we alwez think that "this cant hapn with me, why me ?", no wonder you think it as yet anothr negativity in your life

you have strong feeling to get along with gals, but you still cant.

you ask phone nums to gal on net, they dont giv you a damn, while your other friends, bro's & cousins get it easily & suddenly the rate of jealousy increases to itz highest, dat you evn get jealous of your parents, this is hight of average life,

still there's a balance of sudden shocks of good things happening to you, but not the one you alwez expected,
like love, money bash or lottory.



# the climax#

damn, now itz like this

1) your girl colligue are either lazy + ugly or cute but oversmart & married / committed
(and this is not america that the gal will get lured by you easily)
2) naturally your boss practises favouratism
3) new & good friends - but they can only used for being jealous.
4) good parents - you feel bad inside with a tho't that you can't make their life any better, now & in future,
5) average job - but you feel you are workin for nuts & your brothers' & friends salary alwez greater than you

you keep on feeling that you'l either die nerd or vigin or end up marrying an ugly gal, but still ther'z always a hope

when suddenly a new gal on net adds you, without knowing you.

but again life gets back to it's "averageity" when she also doesnt giv you her num.

so, therz a cycle, that's vicious, no wonder it creates complexes in many, but only average guys know
"how to keep it, when all around them are losing theirs"